Burnt Flesh: Reflection of Failure
Posted on : 28-09-2009 | By : jmillerjr | In : Burnt Flesh
Tags: burntflesh, discipline, Faith, hope, Inspiration, leadership, reflection, wisdom
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Many of you that have seen my tweets and post this morning may be wondering what has prompted my fervor to challenge and inspire men to turn back to their families. This morning, I was listening to Paul Washer speaking on “Gaining the whole world and losing your children”, which prompted me to reflect over the years with my children that have already passed me by.
Over the course of the past 18 years, I believe I have been a good father in my provision and training of my family. I not only spoke God’s word to them and over them, I have endeavored with great pain to live it before them. My children have watched me endure many trials, pain and persecution for what I believe. They have seen me pray tears of anguish and fight the good fight. I have spent many hours away working a secular job and traveling in the ministry. I cherish the time I have with them. However, as I reflect on the little time I have been able to spend with them, especially my oldest son Stephen; I find that I am a failure.
It isn’t that I didn’t provide or train them the best I could or knew how. It’s not even that I haven’t tried to maximize the amount of time I had to spend with them. It’s that I failed to do something of value and life changing with them during this time. I am so exhausted and beat down on my days off that I have absolutely no energy to go anywhere or do anything. I convinced myself that as soon as I make more money or the ministry grows, I will have more time to spend and invest in them.
Now my son Stephen is 18 and attending Texas A&M. I look back and see that we did some things over the past 18 years, but mostly we did nothing as father and son outside of work or ministry. I tried to spend quality time with my son while I worked in the ministry. Don’t get me wrong he did learn a lot of good things, but it also exposed him to some very ugly things in the ministry.
My dad took me fishing, hunting and camping. He taught me how to build things, repair cars and work hard. He was tough, but everything had purpose. I didn’t always agree with him, but I see now he was teaching me to the level he was able. He taught me the more practical things of life that have shaped who I am. Christ has taught me all the spiritual things in my life. The two combined complete my character as a man, father and husband. Sadly, I have taught my son the spiritual side and failed to teach him the more practical side of life. I feel like I have sent him out in to the world spiritually prepared, but practically crippled because I did not pass on those very gifts my father taught me.
My challenge now is to insure that I endeavor to seize every moment to pass these things on to Brittany and Chris while they are still under my authority, and pray I will still have enough influence and impact to teach and train Stephen in these things while he is a grown man.
Men, you don’t have to give yourself a “FAIL”. Seize every moment to teach your children the practical things you learned and may even despised growing up. They are valuable and profitable to developing the whole person of Christ in your children. If you don’t know those things, then discover them together. We have a very limited amount of time with them. Don’t waste it. This is my “Burnt Flesh” moment.
The smell of “Burnt Flesh” is the only thing that pleases God. It is our will aligning with His, and He gets all the praise, honor and glory. Have you “Burnt Flesh” today?


